dream of lyrebird

lost for words..
you girls are the best ~!! ^_____________^
thanks a lot for the suprise birthday party.. hehee =D
and also for all the presents and cards.. hontou wa arigatouuuu ^^v
dai dai daiiiiii suki everything ^___^
weee~~ now i have a family of plushies~!!! ^o^

a quick list.. =D
a cat (yuki - my oldest plushy frm my oneechan ^____^.. yuki dah busuk~!! huhuuuu…)
a duck (ducky - last year’s prezzie frm nadiah gajah =D)
a dog (kupik - from maggie ^^.. last year also.. sempena the name of the dog at our house.. haha)
4 bears (bullet (frm mai chan=)), chubby (frm beraved amy last year ^^), piru (nurul chan (sukebe! =D)) and kishi (sheila chan =D)..waaaa.. i got a gf for piru~!! ^o^/
2 rabbits (akapi - adie’s request.. JE alert~!! hahaa) (another one rabbit is a present frm my bro very very long time ago.. pinky =D)
a kambeng~!!! (=D =D been waiting for someone to give me a kambeng.. finally.. wani gave me one.. haha.. n its name is.. habeng (lol).. why must put ‘ha’ in the front.. @_@)
a dolphin (jiji.. since its the biggest among all the kawaiiii plushies i got last night.. hehe.. arigatou farah d ^_^)
n i also have phoebe (frm intan ^^).. tho i dunno what species should i put her in.. hehehe.. special species! ^o^..

if i can take some pics it would be great ne.. =P

basically.. i’m chouuu ureshii ^_____________^
again.. thank you everyone =D =D (suma mesti dah bosan denga.. haha)

kay ah.. think i babble too much already.. hehe..
minna.. have a great time at the forensic lab today ne.. =D

lastly~~~ especially for nurul.. the translation for hitomi no jyuunin.. ^_^

HITOMI NO JYUUNIN

I don’t know how long… but it’s been some time, 
how much do I really know about you? 
following the map with my fingertips isn’t getting us anywhere, 
I see how it distresses you in your face, 
so much you try to conceal it. 

I want to stay here watching you smile forever
I want to live each changing moment in your eyes,
If one day I could bring you to a serene season
to the flowers blooming in the sky like snowflakes.
…to the flowers

jiwang ah lyric dia nurul.. hahaha

p/s–> switzerland beat korea 2-0..? huuuu..

hait.. kimetta… this year’s birthday theme.. is "hana" (in japanese it means flower)
i got so many flowers this year.. lots n lots n lotssss of them (think i exaggerate it a bit.. XD)
hana is being ambushed by hana.. hahaaa

yesterday morning, somebody put a bouquet of peach coloured roses on my chair.. waaa.. kireii desuu.. ^_^ mitte~!!

and tht somebody happened to be amy~~!! hehee.. arigatou amy =D
they are 13 roses.. 13 for  "H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y" ^o^ thank you again.. =)

then makcik nurul gave me a small teddy bear.. coincidentally.. the bear also had "hana" stitched on its abdomen n left foot.. ^o^ its name is "piru" wahaha.. funny how nurul at first insisted on calling it "piku" but when i stated tht "piku" means tht its "my pi" she  went.. waaaaaaaaaa~~~ yadaaaaaa!!… then decided on "piru" = pi nurul.. lol~  oh.. btw.. pi = yamapi.. hehe..

and todayy~~~ i got another 11 roses.. hohohooo.. arigatou amypanda (again! =D), magnyet (kuang kuang haha), wani (n also for the chocolate =D), nurul sukebe (wahahaa.. /lariii), and moony mun.. ^o^

ureshi ureshiiiii…
thanks a lot everyone.. ^________________^
i’ll put all of the flowers on my wall later neee.. =D

lastly~ a questionnaire tht mag asked me to do..

1) Name anyone with the same birthday as you:
dunno anyone personally..

2) Where was your first date?
never had any.. wahahaa

3) Have you ever seriously vandalised someone
seriously?
yes~!! nadiah gajah.. (gomenapaiii  =D)

4) Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
huu penah…. was a ganas kid back then.. i hate my primary school years.. >_<

5) Have you ever sang infront of a large number of people?
nope.. and not planning to..

6) What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
their behaviour n appearance

7) What do you usually order from starbucks?
hot chocolate! suki desuu ^_^

What is your biggest mistake?
never really studied during my high school years.. XD lazy me..

9) Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?
nope..

10) Say something totally random about you?
i love my family very very very much ^o^ *muahs n hugs*

11) Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
nope

12) Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
jes jes

13) Did you have braces?
nope

14) Are you comfortable with your height?
think i’m too short.. huu

15) What is the most romantic thing someone of
the opposite sex has said to you?
cant think of any.. x penah i guess..

16) When do you know it’s love?
when the feelings i hv for somebody almost close to those tht i hv for my family n i can accept everything about him/her n feel happy in his/her presence.. (wahaha.. mushy mushy ne.. XD but not as easy as it sounds when it comes to otoko.. kinda think tht its muri =P i love lots of my girlfriends tho.. ^___^)

17) Do you speak any other languages?
yep.. malay n english

18) Have you ever been to a tanning salon?
tan..? yada..

19) What magazines do you read?
the times.. galaxie.. reader’s digest (sometimes tho.. hehe)

20) Have you ridden in a limo?
nope.. huhuu..

21) Has anyone you were really close with passed away..?
my grandfather.. v.v

22) Do you watch mtv?
only when im extremely bored n happen to sit in front of the tv~

23) What’s something that really annoys you?
when things didnt go as what i hv planned n smokers (/bonk! yamete kudasai~ or make an effort to.. >_<)

24) What’s something you really like?
my family =D staying at home, my frens, my fantasy books collection, good entertainment stuffs (heheee), good fuuud~!!

25) Do you like Siti Nurhaliza?
not a fan, not a hater (tiru ayat mag)

26) Can you dance?
yes.. hana dance.. hoho~!! uso desuu.. i cant dance.. seriously.. XD

27) Do you have a handphone? What model and who bought it for you?
huwaaaa.. i dont have a hp now.. T.T

28) Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?
nope..

29) What do you wish for?
forever happiness, success and strength for my family.. zutto zuttooo eien ni.. *^_^*

30) Anything you want to say to your friends?
love everyone muchos2 and arigatou for accepting the annoying me.. =D

31) Do you have a credit card? Master or Visa?
master desu

~owariii~ hee

i suggest everyone to try the new hana’s breakfast recepi =D suprisingly very nice.. ^o^
this morning, suddenly had this random weird idea of eating my over-riped banana tht way..

tho.. i think, health-wise.. wahahahaa.. cam very high calory je.. minna san.. make sure u dont eat it every day and not too frequent ok.. =D especially if you are on diet.. hohohooo~

no ainayya dose today.. but here’s a cute picture of naru and kakak’s hand.. chou kawaii deshou..? ^^

1) wanted to be alone for some unknown reason..?
2) really annoyed with everything around you including yourself..?
3) felt like wacking some heads out of the blue..?
4) wished tht some people will stop being so baka..?
5) devoid of the mood to talk, interact with certain people..?
6) made a promise to yourself to never repeat the same mistake again but in the end you still do it..? (yowai ne >_<)
7) felt stupid for having one-sided feelings..? (dont think its boy-girl only~ /bonk! and all kinds of feelings too.. XD)
wished tht you can handle things more properly..?
9) wondered why some people are so ignorant and dense..?
10)  read something you wish you didnt..?
11) wished tht ur family are always very the berry close to u n u wouldnt be thinking all this bakabakashi stupid things..?
12) ….. (insert your own popular have you ever… hehe.. mine, most of them turn out to be very ahou-like.. =P)

anyways.. makcik nurul’s line finally been cut for real..
somehow.. i feel sad.. huu
and so i lost my merepek partner on the net~! huuuu..
sore de.. jya minna..
oh ohh n ganbatte to those who still havent done microb sdl.. dont do last minute work ne.. (wahaha.. supposed to be a note to myself..XD)

lastly, minna san~ today is nadia gajah’s birthday~!! ^_^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIAH~!! ^o^  *choo*

lots of love always.. *hugs*

ainayya dose for today~

i <3 you~

Bad Day - Daniel Powter

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion’s gone away
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

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saturday..
supposed to be the day to melazykan diri.. huhuuuuu.. certainly not the day to wake up early.. take a bath.. n go for ‘a’ class.. aaaaa..　lazy mode activated.. XD

anyways.. aaa.. been thinking lately… wow.. i’m already at the end of 2nd year.. cant believe tht ive been staying here in manipal for 2 years~! huuuu.. hontou ne.. shinjirarenai~!! XD i wonder when i leave this place.. will i ever miss it..? haha.. =P although ima wa my homesickness knocks down all other feelings.. still.. memories in manipal, some i wont forget.. ^_^

hmm besides tht, i also realize tht i’m about to officially celebrate my tuaness~!! waaaaaaa… yadaaa.. @_@ when i’m 30 can i still have this perasan feelings of being young..? saaa~~

and lastly, ainayya pic spam time~!

ainayya + phoebe.. hehe.. the plushy (a present from intan)  tht i sent home last march.. =D

sore de.. jya minna.. ^_^ have a great weekend~!

01. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
02. Am I lovable?
03. How long have you known me?
04. When and how did we first meet?
05. What was your first impression?
06. Do you still think that way about me now?
07. What do you think my weakness is?
08. Do you think I’ll ever get married?
09. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When’s the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn’t?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your block and see what I say about you?

finally i manage to get my hands on the final..*drool*
the starting of the song is simply beautiful..aaa however, when i
read the translation of the song found out that its *very* suicidal.. XD tsk2..

watched the pv for it b4..the guy in the end put a gun in his mouth and *kaboom* (not that they show it la..just my interpretation..hehe) ..papepun sgt2 x sesuai untuk tontonan kanak2 ribena..aaand besides that..=D you also get to cuci mata tgk bishies playing guitar n bass dgn semangatnye..hahaa..kakkoiiii! *^o^* really =D

hm suddenly remember the girl who took 25 dose of panadol who after that went
into coma and died after a few days..the reason..? she had just
finished her exam and was all stressed out thinking that she did her
exam badly (if i’m not mistaken)

if i were to think that way i dont know how many times i would have
tried to commit suicide.. x_X maybe she also had other problems
mounting on her..n think life is too cruel n why dont i just *poof*
away..yare yare..just think about the misery and sadness the family
have to bear..huhuu..

I watch my purpose disappear…

my left hand unable to write the words.

everytime I shed blood, my reason for living…

the words come to me clearly.

in my hands, even my beloved is scattered gloriously

in my hands, even if I cut the meaning of my life in,

I know it’s a meaningless flower.

one, two and growing…  why do I become the humorless feed?

The Final

the deep prison at my core, I can never return.

a masochistic loser unable to feel tomorrow

Suicide is the proof of life.

in my hands, even my beloved is scattered gloriously

in my hands, even if I cut the meaning of my life in,

perishes a meaningless flower.

So I can’t live, so I can’t live

Yes, that which I’ve lost

So I can’t live, so I can’t live

can’t be made again.

So I can’t live, so I can’t live

the song doesn’t even seek

So I can’t live, so I can’t live

to prove my life

Let’s put an end… The Final

I’ll make the bud of a suicide attempt blossom.

nyum nyum..having it as breakfast..
tho its a bit sweet.. x_X
aaaaa tido tido tidoooooo je keje >_< balik2 kul 5 tido..bangun asar tido balik..bangun maghrib tido balik..bangun makan planet cafe burger tido balik..bangun makan ais krim sandesh kasi tido balik..bangun at 2 dl ape yg patut tido balik..then tidooo la sampai kul 6 pagi..ni baru tul2 rase xnak tido balik..basically i slept from 5pm to 6am..tsk2

yare yare..niji simply rocks!! can gives u the *fuwa fuwa* feelings,dark n beautiful..

~niji~
Toki ha kanadete omoi ha afureru
Togire souna hodo toumei na koe ni
Aruki dashita sono hitomi he
Hateshinai mirai ga tsuzuite ru

Hountou ha totemo kokoro ha moroku
Daremo ga hibi warete iru
Furidashita ame ni nurete
Kimi ha mata tachidomatte shimau kedo
shinjite kureru kara

Dare yori takaku Sore heto chikazuku
Kagayaki wo atsume
Hikari wo motomeru
Moetsukitemo kamawanai sa
Subete ha sinjitsu to tomo ni aru

(Shounen ha hito no kage ni
yuganda nikushimi wo mita)
Sonna sekai nante mou
nanimo mitaku naiyo
Nani mo ! Nani mo ! Nani mo !

Soredemo omou Anata no koto wo
Kisetsu ga nagarete ittemo…
Me wo tojite itsumo miteta
Fuukei no youni
Nando me ka no ame mo agatta

Setsunai hito yo
Kanawanu negai yo
Naze kono ude kara
Ai ha umarete yuku ?
Saki midareta
Hana ha yurete
Shizunda daichi ni furi sosogu

Ai wo toki ha kanadete omoi ha afureru
Togiresouna hodo toumeina koe ni
Aruki dashita Sono hitomi he
Owaranai mirai wo sasage you

(chorus)
stairway to heaven
labyrinth to heart

~laruku~

I will dedicate and sacrifice my every–thing
for just a seconds worth of how my story’s ending
I wish I could know if the directions that I take
all the choices that I make won’t end up all for nothing

chorus:
Show me what it’s for
Make me understand it
I’ve been crawling in the dark
looking for the answer
Is there something more
than what I’ve been handed?
I’ve been crawling in the dark
looking for the answer

Help me carry on
Assure me it’s ok to
use my heart and not my eyes
to navigate the darkness
Will the ending be ever coming suddenly?
Will I ever get to see the ending to my story?

chorus

So when and how will I know?

How much further do I have to go? (have to go)
How much longer until I finally know? (finally know)
’cause I am looking and I just can’t see what’s in front of me
in front of me

chorus

ape aaa..pepagi buta dah tertipu ngan aimi..tu la yang pelik..die maneee la leh bawak basikal..skali ckp baru lepas bawak basikal..ckp ahh exercise nye basikal..bing! haha

hmm lately i think i’ve been having panda eyes..cam terlebih tido..tapi cam x cukup tido..haha..but i do think my sleep schedule is a mess! study nye cite tayah ah ckp..kambing tull..relax je sokmo..bile la nak insaf ni..huuu..err..not tht i ever rajin..but at least..bukak la buku tu!! ish2..ni pegang buku pun bile perlu..tsk2..

funny how.. i plan on not to cry this syawal..when i’m already sobbing my heart’s out listening to ba’s voice..singing a song for me..
n got teary just because aimi didnt reply my msgs..n finally got angry n merajuk thinking tht she’s doin it on purpose n has forgotten bout me n is ignoring me..(yea i know its foolish..) in the end its not tht she didnt reply my msgs..its because streamyx buat hal n her msgs didnt reach me..

sorry everyone for being a giant cry monster..
i cry a lot n demand lots of attention n expect everyone to treat me like an ojousama..
staying so far away from home n not being able to celebrate hari raya with all of you makes me even more monstrous!!
hana is missing everyone very much!!